In the last two years, I’ve quit several times but relapsed after 4–6 months each time

28M. Been smoking since 13-14.

Anyone relapse this much as well? I swear. I’m fine for 5 months. Then, randomly, one night I’ll get an INSANE urge to smoke something and I can’t resist it. It’s a feeling that is temporary but I’m weak.

Since I’m an addict, one hit gets me back into it. The process usually comprises of:

Day 1 - 1 hit of a J won’t hurt.
Day 2 - alright, last one.
Week 2 - now I can’t sleep without it… this is the last night, just so I can sleep better :p
2 months later of everyday, all day cart use later:

And then I finally gain some courage and quit! And I go through those 2-3 weeks of hell(sweating like crazy, feeling every emotion possible, no eating, no sleeping). (Withdrawals are fucking rough from everyday all day cart use apparently LOL)

4-6 months later, rinse and repeat.

Anyway. More of a vent. Appreciate you checking in ❤️