Need some advice as an early 20s fella.

Hi all! First, thank you and shoutout to this community. Really appreciate the kindness and understanding I’ve seen on all these posts.

I, 22M, have been smoking since I was 17/18. Started smoking daily around 19 and haven’t looked back. I’ve always struggled with self-hate and self-perception for relying so heavily on weed, but yknow. I always spark up anyways.

These past few months have been sorta different. I’ve graduated college and got out of a long relationship and I’m realizing just how little weed is serving me. I’ve taken my first days off here and there from smoking for the first time in several years, even. Which has been nice when I’m able to achieve it. (2-3 times in the last month)

However, despite feeling so much more grounded in the reality that I need to slow down and truly wanting to, I still struggle mightily. Hell, I’m probably going to toke up after writing this for 7/10, even though there’s other things that I know would benefit me. I just can’t break the habit and routine of having it a part of my daily life, especially when evenings come around. It’s almost scary to try and break away from it. Im always looking for excuses or reasons I can give myself to smoke. Hell, this post is probably my subconscious justification for today.

Is there a mindset thing I need to change? Do I just need to stfu and get down and dirty and forcefully stop altogether? Do I even want to quit if I so easily fold every day? I’m just struggling with it all and was curious if anyone had some reassurance or advice on here.

Thanks yall ✌️❤️