I am sad

I just wanted to be loved by her, just wanted to meet her once. I begged countless times to god to let it happen, let me see her in real for once, let me talk to her, let me hug her, let me pat her head. Whyyy. I am so emotional right now.

All I ever wanted was love and now I doubt I can ever fall in love again even it's her. Why did this happen to me I never did wrong to anyone. I don't deserve this