I think my buddy is taking me to a bullshit meeting today

I fuckin hate those dumb programs and shit, I've been sober for over two one year stretches and putting the pink elephant in the room doesn't help. Anyhoo I have no stopped drinking for a week straight and fuckin majorly damaged my relationship, forgot to eat for 3 days, keep alternating between shitting and puking (liquid, that's super fun). Had to have over 12 people check on me this week. Trauma dumped on my neighbors because they asked how was your day and I'm just so physically sick I had to have 9 shuts of rum to not feel retarded this morning. Managed to walk the dog and ended up puking 6 times on the walk. So yah my buddy wants to help and I think I might do it this time but at the same time I'm like hey buddy I'm not worried about the mental bullshit I need to outrun the withdrawal for now. lol

Anyhoo I was like fuckit if I gotta sober up again for awhile might as well have my favorite wine which is apothic red.

Good luck amigos yall are handling this better then me, I've been a complete piece of shit this week but somehow managed to get my chick to come over and she was planning on breaking up but instead we ended up banging so thats neat but I gotta figure my shit out friends hope yall do well and don't forget to eat I was fuckin fine until I forgot so i dunno