Feeling lost.

Lost my mom when I was 21, lost the rest of the family from her side when I was 23 because I could not handle my depressions.

Lost my father when I was 28 because of jail and also managed to get myself into debt because of trusting him.

When I was 31 I lost my brother because he told me he will no longer be paying the debt althought he is part of it.

Now im 34 and i lost the love of my life. She knew about everything. I met her 8 years ago and gave her my whole heart. Even the last thing that I had after my mom. My dog Jessie. After 8 years in a relationship and 2 years being my fiance she deciced she doesnt feel it anymore.

Now im alone in a shit country, shit flat where pets are not allowed.

I have no home. No one cares how I am. No one cares if I wake up tommorow.

With her I lost my future wife, my future Kids, my goals I háve been building up.

Everything gone in a single conversation.

Im tired and i do not want to wake up tommorow.

Nor do I want to start again or fight against fate ever again.

Im just done.