Finding your people

Finding your people when you feel like you don’t fit in anywhere

Hey all, at the moment I feel like I’m in a bit of a rut and have lost my purpose. Have always felt like I don’t fit in easily in most environments because of my obvious awkwardness, nervousness, racing mind and unfiltered brain lol. I just come up with the most random stuff, but I’m also extremely introverted as a person, and have become even more so that way as I have been diagnosed with more stuff, like recently Borderline Personality Disorder and in the past, anxiety and OCD. There’s been a lot of masking of autistic traits too, which has been backed up by professionals. In spite of that I’ve been determined to make something positive out of my struggles (and many other people’s struggles) and to create a community for those like myself who don’t fit society’s mould, or don’t try to fit in, like march to the beat of their own drum you could say! I really don’t have many close friends that get that struggle and I really wanted to create an app or online community that could branch into irl events, even with an hour’s worth of activity, dog petting, painting, crafting, gaming whatever (no talking) and then refreshments and chat after! This dream has been my passion for so long, to help any of the people who have ever felt unseen or left out to find their people, but in all seriousness my mental health isn’t good at the minute and I have lost masses of confidence in my ability to create something like this as I AM the target market if you get me. Really want to get back to working on this in some capacity as it was my absolute passion and I have lost my purpose since putting it on the back burner but I also want to know that it’s actually worth it and people need something like that. Not strictly NI but would start there. What are you guys thoughts on the whole thing and any suggestions or ideas to adapt? Also any tips on how I can regain my passion again without losing my mental wellbeing, do let me know. I struggle with the really extroverted stuff on a bad day but as anyone with BPD knows, or any mental illness, bad days are aplenty. Thank you all 💫