I can’t stop thinking about the airport

I held it together but as soon as he had to leave me at security i broke down. I sobbed so hard the whole way through. I cried until i got onto the first plane.

As soon as i landed at the second airport it hit me even harder because i wasn’t even in his country anymore. I had a few hours and spent the whole time trying not to cry.

I got to my gate and just broke down completely. I couldn’t stop myself from crying and a few people were staring. I couldn’t even feel embarrassed through my tears. I didn’t stop until the plane took off. I fell asleep and slept the duration of the flight. It was only an hour or so.

As soon as i got home i broke down all over again. It’s always the hardest thing ever. We only have a week together at a time and it’s not enough. There’s a six month gap inbetween visits, so we can’t be together until October.

Even now i cry at least once daily. I miss him so badly :( My chest physically aches every day.

I have the comfort in knowing that he’s moving to my country next year, but it just feels so far away.