21 [M4A] Long distance cuckold looking to be humiliated and bullied, more info below

Hi there, I'd love to chat with anyone likeminded, or any bullies willing to humiliate me for having such embarrassing fantasies: no matter how hard I try, I can't stop thinking about my ex-girlfriend and her new boyfriend.

We were an online couple, which is already pathetic enough, but for more context, she's 19, white, and extremely petite. Barely weighs 100 pounds, and her height's 5'2. Meanwhile, I'm average weight, and 5'6, while her new boyfriend is 6'1 and HUGE.

When I knew my ex-girlfriend, she LOVED playing into her small stature, and had a size kink. We'd always be fantasizing about how l'd pick her up and carry-fuck her.

But while all I could ever do was fantasize about that, her new boyfriend actually lives near her, and has more than enough strength to pleasure her like I never could. HE gets to have what I never could. It's so utterly humiliating, and yet, I can't stop thinking about it. Please mention any information I just now detailed in your response so that I know that you’ve read this.