Spanking

Its no secret I got spanked i didn't get many only 2 really come to my mind but more could have happened. But to say it effected me is an understatement. I think it caused some sexual problems with me in life to where I sorta obsess on the topic but also made me a very closed off individual. I was always worried about getting in trouble to the point where I'd have breakdowns. The spankings weren't bad and over in seconds but just how my brain wired it i think turned it into something bad. I've always struggled with it all turning into my obsession in adulthood where I kinda hate myself for my brain turning it into what it has.