Lonely dad, 39

My wife and I worked completely opposite shifts. She's a chef and works five evenings a week, including every weekend, while I'm a butcher and work from 5am until 3pm. Because of that, she was usually at work whenever the kids weren't at school, so for a long time I felt like I was raising them on my own. It created a lot of tension between us over the years.

Now that she's gone, I just feel lost. I'm trying to come to terms with everything, but I'm struggling to find the motivation to do even the simplest things. It feels like I'm carrying the weight of it all on my own, and some days it's really hard to see a way forward.