I hate my mothers voice

I hate the way she hesitates at the beginning of every sentence, I hate the way she sounds like she’s constantly trying to placate me, I hate when she tells me that I’m doing something wrong and I need to fix it (I’m autistic and I struggle with pathological demand avoidance). And I hate how she always has some bullshit life hack that she had to show me when in trying to do stuff despite my brain not working in a way that finds “life hacks” to be helpful. Everything has to be her way.