You Heal When You Love Again?

I’ve been all over the place the last year in terms of healing. So many ups and downs and total collapses where I feel just as desperate for closure as when it all happened.

But this last week something interesting happened. Another person in my life that I once romantically loved and then later came to love as a friend is moving out of my life (they’re fine, just won’t be around me now). Her and I intentionally inserted distance between eachother because it wasn’t appropriate for us to have a romantic relationship. Since then we’ve just been friends and we kind of keep a bit of emotional distance.

But this last week it kind of forced us closer together again as friends since she’s leaving and I guess it reminded me just of how much love (not romantic love but just love and appreciation) we have for each other. And how safe love can actually feel.

Honestly it put a lot into perspective with my ex. Because she made love feel so unsafe. I’ve been feeling more over my ex than ever before.

So maybe healing is learning to love again. And that doesn’t have to be romantic. It can be a friend. It can be yourself. Idk. I just feel good and it’s been a long time since I’ve felt good