Day 5 | took me 2 weeks just to get back on Day 5, It's getting really hard to keep going |G4mer_Mii

Day 5

17, Male,

I relapsed a few times to get here, it was really hard to get here, but now that I'm here, I just feel so unbelievably f*****g h*r**, So h*r** in fact, I'm actively edging my pillow as Im typing this, I literally can't stop, I can't stop myself, I literally don't have control over my own body, I don't know how else to describe it, but it feels like I'm getting🍇, I wish I can ej******e, but I can't because I'll be back to Day 0, all I can think about is having **x, I just want this pressure to go away, I can't stop, I can't stop, I can't stop.

Its getting really hard to keep going, I don't even know what to feel anymore, I wish I could do it, but we live in a world where we can't

I will be rewarded if I keep it going,

I will become the best version of myself

But that doesn't change the fact that I'm

STILL F*****G H*R** AS F***. AAAAAAAAAAAA

*cough, clear throat

Im sorry, before you leave, please talk to me, I feel so alone in this and I don't want to be alone, I can't tell anyone about this stuff, thats why im here, please please comment something here, anything, PLEASE, well, thanks for reading until the end anyways

(P.S. I'm still edging it)