My heart is undecided

I just found out. I am pregnant as of last Saturday my partner and I had been fighting from Thursday night ultimately leading up to him leaving Wednesday. He is gone and will not communicate with me and has already said he doesn’t want the baby. Everyone is telling me not to have the baby and it sucks because I don’t know if I have the heart to have the abortion. I ordered the pills and they just came in today, but my heart is so torn because I don’t know what to decide. I do have two kids within already abusive baby daddy so I really wanted my next kid to be with someone who I thought was a great person, and I thought it was him but the way that things have been lately had me questioning things. I am about to get a promotion at work with more pay my kids will finally be in the same school and I’m in school. I truly don’t know what decision to make but I feel like everyone is influencing me to have an abortion and I really just don’t know what to do. I know people say they don’t have regrets but I’m such an emotional person. I feel like this would eat me alive for the rest of my life. My two kids are here today because I’ve never believed an abortion so the fact that I’m considering it so heavily right now is really weighing on me. I do have the pills because if this is something I’m going to do I want to do it sooner rather than later, but I’m really just stuck and scared.