I want a girl bff so bad

I wish I had a girl bff to rant to and listen to while she yaps, a few of my friends have them and the way they say they’re “annoying” and that they’re “such an idiot” but the way they say it makes them seem like they really enjoy talking to such an “annoying” and “dumb” person and I want that so bad. I feel shitty for coming here and talking about it but for some reason it makes me feel really left out and alone.