Lost my place in line for rehab

I’ve been waiting all week to hear about getting in, I’ve been in constant contact and kept being assured that I would get in this week.

This morning I got a call saying insurance changed things up and I won’t be able to get a place for a month or two… I honestly don’t think I’ll survive another month, I have absolutely no control and making the call to get on the rehab list was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done.

Im feeling so rejected, I feel like I tried so now I should just give up. I used the last of my willpower to get myself put on another waitlist but I can’t even do intake or anything until Monday. I don’t want this, I just want to be passed this and it’s been so hard I really can’t handle it getting so much harder.