Gaming helped me feel better way more than I anticipated

I've had this weird thing for as long as I can remember, where I can't allow myself to do fun things until "the time is right", except I don't know what this time is and when it shows up so I end up barely engaging with a lot of my hobbies. And the more I value the hobby (or game) the harder it is.

I saw a post about this feeling in r/ocdmemes, and even though I have no idea if I have OCD or not I felt so, so much better knowing I'm not alone in that feeling.

It's really hard to click Play on Steam for some reason, it makes me feel guilty, and I get so anxious that I'm not enjoying the game "correctly". But I let myself revisit my favorite game the other day, and I swear to God my feelings of depression decreased instantly. I thought I'd get too anxious and quit early, and I'd just feel worse, but I was able to keep going for a few hours. It was so nostalgic and fun.

So if anyone is holding off on doing something they love out of some obscure anxiety, just force yourself to do it, don't think about it, and if you're anything like me you'll feel better.