i stopped feeling emotions and attachments

look i dont want to seem like an edgy 14 year old boy who just discovered light yagami h(im an 18 year old girl) but about a year ago I stopped feeling anything towards anyone. even my parents and boyfriend i cant seem to feel anything towards emotion towards them. today it was finalized for me because I made my mother sad over a stupid argument and i recall feeling upset when i made her sad a year ago even if I was right but today i felt nothing. I would do anything for my family but its more of because its factual that they are my family. I dont think I feel any attachment to anything anymore and its panicking me because I don’t want to feel this way. I just feel so empty all the time and no amount of partying or hanging with people or my boyfriend or vacations or alchohol fixes this. I used to enjoy things even if I was a little lacking in emotion I still used to feel things but now I just don’t anymore. There is a constant emptyness in my chest how do I fix this????????????? is this just the way it is now???