I would never find a true love and now I guess I finally accepted it

Like to be honest, even though if I have some likable traits (with I don't think I do but it's for people to decide) I don't think I would actually be comfortable with dating and shit.

I spent too much time alone and I have no idea how to communicate with real people, and probably I would be creepy or awkward or whatever with other person. I never was on dates and I have no idea how to behave on one or how should it be. I'm terrible at communicating and it's normal for me to just disappear in my room for weeks and only after that remember that there actually people and I should talk to them sometimes because they would decide that I don't like them, or just forget about my existing.

Not having a job and don't be able to provide for a partner also a big deal because I'm kinda used that the only thing other want from me is my money.

And I think it's not the worst scenario to just not leave my comfy room forever, cuddle with my body pillow and do nothing all days long because after all I have my 2d waifu and it's all I need.

P.s. online relationship always sucked for me so I don't think it would work out for me even though I know a few examples where people actually met that way and live happily together