Drowning

My body feels like fire right now .
Like the world is closing in on me and I’m drowning under the weight.
I want so bad to reach out , to cry out .
I want to feel like I’m not alone in the silence like I try to do for others .
But that feels wrong . It feels wrong to want anyone to just hold me . To see that I’m breaking and WANT to hold me . I don’t want to be a burden I don’t want to ask to much . I just feel like I’m drowning and I want so bad so come up for air but I think I forgot how to swim …