Should I leave or try this again?

I am 18 F and my now Ex long distance Bf is 18 M. We dated for about 10 months and a lot of it was good but there’s definitely parts that have been very draining and taken an emotional toll on me. I loved him very much and I would do anything for the relationship we had but I had to break up with him recently because he handles situations and conflicts in a way that hurts me. We had a fight over me not texting him back or something and he answered the phone with an extreme attitude, very snappy and rude and I was just like okay I’ll ignore it and try to ask about each others day. Nope he didn’t like that and created a problem, eventually he got so mad that I was upset on why he was creating arguments and he told me “all you want to do is bitch about it now” so I’m a big lover but when people I love deeply say hurtful things it cuts deep, I’ve felt upset about that for awhile despite he apologized but when he did he was making excuses of why he said that and why he was being like that was because “he’s been having a hard life and has had a bunch of shit to deal with” but I feel despite having hard things you shouldn’t treat your partner in that way no matter what. I have so much patience with people that I just accept it and shrug it off , I’ve done it my whole life. But there’s things that make me feel uncomfortable in the relationship. Whenever I played with my friends he would be upset I wasn’t giving attention to him and would be rude, and say I don’t put enough attention or effort (despite me calling him all day everyday) I would even have him on a separate phone while calling with my other friends sometimes because he was upset if I hung up and stayed up talking to them and didn’t go to bed. He has called me a dick over something he was also upset over and I’m the kind of person to stay quiet when people or things get extreme. I don’t say a word, I do admit I have laughed because he thought what he has said to me was stupid so I know that probably wasn’t the best thing but other than that I just loose all energy to talk or explain anymore because every time we argue it feels like we get no where and he makes it go in circles instead of admitting that what he did was hurtful or wrong. It’s just hard because there’s so many aspects of the relationship I didn’t like either but other ones that I did. I did hangout with one of my guy friends that I’ve known for 6 years and mind you has always respected my relationships and I’ve tried to get my Ex to meet him but when he did on the phone he was immediately passive aggressive with everything and snappy and very rude. So I’ve tried to build that trust and for them to become friends but he’s always shut it down. I didn’t reply to him for about 4 hours when my friend (I’ll call him Luke not his real name) came over to celebrate me getting my drivers thing passed. It was fun we hung out then he left and my Ex completely blew it up and that’s when I was fed up over everything and broke up with him. He also wasn’t very emotionally stable, didn’t try to make himself happy, just sat in his room and played video games all day and would talk to me about his emotions and all his problems almost all the time and honestly it was very draining for me too. Anyways to rap this up I told him he needs to change, he says he has , he’s doing a lot more now but I haven’t seen change with the conflicts or the controlling aspects which makes me scared to consider anything again. He keeps pressuring me and wanting to talk it out and come visit me so we can be in a relationship again but deep down I can’t tell if I actually want this again or not. I feel like it takes a lot longer to change the way he handles his emotions .I love him, he’s handsome and fun and we did make a lot of good memories here and there and I’m also just so attached for some reason that I can’t seem just to let it go. I feel like whenever I think of cutting it off that it’s the wrong thing and that maybe I should just try again but is that the right thing? All his friends hate me despite me doing nothing for apparently “playing with his feelings” for still talking to him but in reality I’m fighting with my emotions and mind on what to do anymore. It just seems like I’m back to square one with everything. I don’t want to be in a relationship again where things spiral and I loose myself. All I’ve ever wanted was a guy to love me the right way and at this point I’m just so conflicted about everything. I like him I do but I also want to love myself the right way. What do I do I really don’t know anymore it hurts and has been haunting me for weeks now.