25 M4M Slim cute nerd with social anxiety looking to give first BJ to older hung - read

Hi hi. Basically as the title says!

I have social anxiety and due to it I don't have much experience in most things in life. I'm mostly straight but also curious and heteroflexible. I'd really want to try giving first BJ, BUT would have some guidelines;

1. I'd really like someone older, preferably around 40 if possible.
2. I'd like it to be anonymous if possible. Gloryhole or ski mask. Social anxiety and face to face is too scary :c
3. Prefer a dick on the shorter but thicker side
4. Prefer someone chubby or on the bigger side

I'm slim and cute-faced. I'm disease free and tested. Only been with a couple of girls and was long term, and was tested afterwards just in case.

I can't really host, \*\*BUUUT\*\* maybe late at night I can. I'm not from Montreal and staying with a friend's family for a couple of months (leaving in July), though am in the basement which is \*\*SEMI\*\* private, as it's attached to the rest of the house with indoor staircase. Kind of risky though