transitioning back and not welcomed

I dont' fit in anywhere, I am alone and my mental health is extremely bad and I hate my body. I have severe dysphoria or I guess you could call it, reverse dysphoria. I am a detransitioner, but many places that r meant for us are overrun with conservatives trying to use us or put our insecurities on a pedastal to gawk at, I have nowhere to turn to. I've tried to partake in local gender-queer communities but it went awful, to my face they called me a priveleged trender and said I should not be allowed to get hrt anymore, even though I have to, and they still to this day repost anti detransitioner posts targeted at me, sometimes they'll even outright state its about me and how they find my self loathing funny, or how I apparently ruined myself, when in my case specifically, I didn't want to transition at all, it was coercive by family who said I wasn't a good girl and had to become their son to be loved! Am I just a burden to everyone and everything? Is there anywhere that even wants somebody like me at all? Am I bad for the fact that this even happened at all? I just want to belong. Any advice is appreciated, plz don't be rude to me I am in a very emotional place currently. Just need some kind of supportive place that won't politicize it.