The grief continues…and, so much has happened to me since my parents died!

My dad died in 2022. My mom died in 2025. Two months ago, I celebrated my 40th birthday, which was my first time having a birthday as an “adult orphan”. I’m an only child, as were both of my parents. It is hard to move on after such losses. I wish I could talk to my parents. I wish I could tell them what has taken place in my life since they passed away.

I’d like to tell them that my chronic and unmanageable digestive problems, which, for 15 years, had seemed to be the worst IBS, got even worse due to certain meds, including an antibiotic. The pain was intolerable. I tried over and over to change my diet but just couldn’t get better. Ended up getting a CT scan in the hospital emergency department.

The big surprise to me was that, in the scan report, it was noted that there were structural abnormalities that looked like Crohn’s disease. Some other test results have been highly suggestive of Crohn’s but, thus far, the available evidence is inconclusive, so there’s a need for further data. Recently I was prescribed a Crohn’s steroid medication in spite of my ambiguous biopsy result, in an effort to reduce my ongoing symptoms that may be linked to inflammation in my GI tract. I hope to get officially diagnosed in the future because I do think that I have this condition (even though I initially did not).

A longterm friend and I became more than friends. He has been an incredible support person. So have my friends, and my family friends who were close with my parents. I still struggle with grief, anxiety, chronic illness symptoms, and a sense of uncertainty about the future.