Money life and weight

Before I started losing weight journey, I was 160 kg and become 90 kg with more muscle bus on the last year I get some disease called vss and economically. I lost so much money more than hundred grand and on my life. I have nobody not even family right now. I’m on low money. I don’t have any income and I’m thinking about the next few months rent. I I gain weight again I become 120 kg right now. I mean I know I’m able to lose weight but psychologically. I feel so bad like I’m getting myself into food to escape to reality and I never like there is so much to say, but I don’t wanna say everything. Is there any advice you guys can give me life? I feel myself lost and not gaining that awaits is making me more mad about it.