I lost my finger at 18 and got it amputated 3 weeks ago. AMA

I made an AMA about this three weeks ago, the day after my amputation. Yesterday I got my stitches removed, the wound is fully healed, and now I’m getting used to my new normal. Since some time has passed, I figured I’d do another AMA, because now there’s a space for new questions.

Quick backstory: my friends and I (female, 18) left a bar and decided going for a swim at a lake in the middle of the night sounded like a great idea. The place was closed and we’re not the ones who go home at the moment, so obviously we tried climbing over the metal fence instead. A couple of people made it over just fine, and I was where the fun ended.
I grabbed the metal beams sticking out from the top of the fence, but realized my arms weren’t strong enough to hold my weight while I swung my legs over. I decided to jump back down to rest for a second, think of a better way to climb, and then try again.
It was dark, surrounded by bushes, and I gor pain shock, so it completely prevented me from understanding what had happened. I honestly thought I’d just caught my finger on something and cut it. Then someone shined a flashlight on my hand. The only part of my right middle finger that was still intact was about half of the first phalanx. Everything else was gone, just exposed bloody bone. The skin, muscles, and everything else had been ripped away. The nerves were still there, which made it even more horrifying, I could still move the finger, even though it wasn’t really a finger anymore, just a moving piece of exposed bone.
The most likely explanation is that the ring I was wearing on that finger got caught on one of the beams. When I jumped down, my body weight did the rest, leaving the finger hanging on the fence. That’s only a theory, though - again, it was pitch black, and we never found the missing part.

While everyone around me started panicking, I walked toward the highway exit and kept saying to the person next to me, “Promise me this is actually happening to me”. My brain was desperately trying to invent other explanations, that I was too drunk and hallucinating, or that this had happened to someone else and I was somehow experiencing it from their perspective. Someone called an ambulance. I could feel myself starting to lose consciousness, but fortunately right person stayed with me the whole time and kept me awake. Everyone else was freaking out, except of me and the friend who helped me out. I never had a panic attack, not in the ambulance, not in the hospital. And no, before anyone asks, it wasn’t because I was high. I had sobered up by then. So I ended up joking around with the doctors and with the friend who came to the hospital with me.

The doctors gave me a choice: attempt to reconstruct the finger, or amputate it. At first, I insisted on reconstruction. But about an hour before surgery, the doctors explained in much more detail what reconstruction would actually involve and what kind of result I could realistically expect. So I changed my mind and chose amputation. My family completely disagreed with me, and my friends couldn’t understand why I would make that decision.
Making a permanent, life-changing choice in the space of an hour at 18 years old was incredibly difficult. But spoiler: I’m very glad I listened to the doctors and to myself instead of everyone else’s opinions.

The healing process has gone perfectly, although I unfortunately ran into more than a few incompetent medical professionals along the way.
I still get anxious thinking about that night. Recently someone even sent me a video taken about a minute before the accident. In it I’m laughing while my friends, who had already climbed over the fence, are joking around and filming everything. That still hurts emotionally, but I’m definitely not going to spiral into depression or develop a complex over it.

AMA.

Sorry for the wall of text. I trimmed it down as much as I could, but last time I skipped a few details and ended up getting a bunch of stupid, hostile questions, so I’d rather cover the basics from the start.