Hi!!! So today I have a family day ahead!!!!don't expect anything today because a) I'm going to my mom's house in a couple of hours b) my ass is sore and I want to stop playing with it at least a day

Also!!! News!!

Last night I hung out w some friends, male friends, and somehow the conversation derived to porn. I'm not making this sexy and I hope you're not either because it's really just friends. The point is one of them mentioned something about how porn showed up in his twitter account and the other one advised him not to watch porn on twitter bc it would clog his timeline.

So I'm obviously a neurotic paranoid person, in case you didn't know, which me and now I'm scared my videos will show up to them. All of this to say I'm going private on Twitter I'm on 94 followers and it's a shame before I got to a hundred so I'm leaving it a couple of hours like this so I grow a few more followers. In case you wanted to follow me to see the videos and stuff

Now, going back to my cunt. Today the first thing I did when I woke up was come here and saw some links some of you sent me to facialabuse videos. Particularly one of an 18 year old who couldn't stop crying. I do feel a bit guilty for getting wet, but I did nevertheless. My oussy is super wet right now but again, I won't play at all. 

Last night as I was hanging with my friends one guy from tinder that I was hoping to go in a date with started getting very sexually in my dms. Not sexual tbh, but definitely not a gentleman. I am very horny and I don't know, should I go meet him and try to get fucked? Thi I do watch house of the dragon with the guy that likes cnc, so probably tomorrow we'll hang out and I would get fucked, and I can keep playing like s lady with the tinder guy

Part of me wants to be a whore forever, the other part missed being treated like a lady and seeing a guy try his best to get me. Like having a guy try his best and then when I'm finally in bed with him he realising what s whore I am, is a lovely reaction to see 

So anyways all of that is in my mind. Also, sad but I haven't been degraded much since I started this challenge 😭. I get loads of messages, but mostly people trying to own me, where sre the famous rape threats a girl used to get around here :( 

I do miss being mocked. I know I can't really follow up chats because I really get a lot of messages but like you could still comment or send me messages making fun of me if only to make my pussy way wetter

This doesn't mean I don't get these types of comments because I do and I love them, but my greddy cunt wants more. I miss when I came here and left actually wondering if I was fucked up in the head and hating myself. Maybe my tolerance to abuse just got better.

I'm looking forward to breaking myself a little, I feel so disconnected. Maybe is the no touching? I dk, is like a high I keep chasing and it's taking me further but now I never get that high anymore as I used to. And by high I mean low lol

I'm kinda addicted I mean. I like that somehow. 

I'm sorry this is probably a boring post. In adding a picture of my cunt to make it slightly more useful

Day 5