Am I being naive relationship advice… me [34F] bf [46M]

My \[46M\] bf and I \[34F\] have been together a year and a half. We bought a ring last December. I was excited as I have always told him I want a family and husband from day 1. When our one year came in February I was upset that he didn’t propose and told him I didn’t want to stick around if he had no intentions of proposing. He said he was planning to on our Europe trip in June… well before our Europe trip he said he felt too pressured and wanted it to be natural and that he wasn’t doing it in Europe… this obviously hurt me. He has had a past divorce and has trauma from that so I tried giving him grace but now my anxiety is full fledge my biggest fear is being led on by someone and not ever getting the life of kids and marriage that I want. I know we are only a year and a half in but I can’t help but be so hurt. Am I being naive to stay?