On going crime is making me unstable
I'm in a horrible situation where my next door neighbour has multiple times tried to get in my apartment during different time of the day and night. Also banging and ringing the door bell like insanely. It's stressing me the fuck out and causes paranoia etc.
I've done two police reports so far and hiding at my parents place atm. Almost two weeks and counting.
Because of this situation I'm starting to get real unstable. Nightmares, intense stress, paranoia, is triggering real bad. Sometimes it feels like I'm slipping into depression and other times into hypomania. Perhaps a mixed episode is incoming.
I have no contact with my current psychiatry due to have treated me badly for years. Not taking me serious, downplay my symtoms due to having type 2 - even when I hallucinated they didn't take it seriously. Denied change of medicine and such. The list goes on. So I have no support from them atm and I REFUSE reaching out.
I just want this misery to go away. I want to be able to be in my apartment. But I'm so scared that the neighbour will somehow get in my apartment so I don't dare to take my sleeping meds cus I want to be ready to defend myself. Which makes me sick.
The police are aware of my bipolar disorder and are able to help me more in thise case - even tho I don't have proof to show but thankfully one witness. So it can be possible to get him caught. But that means I have to be at my apartment like a bait.
Please lord, don't make me fall into an episode.
(excuse my bad english)
Posted Jul 11, 2026, 1:13 PM UTC