How to convince my husband

Do I let him watch the first time

My husband and I started diving deep into this fantasy after a few years of fantasizing. We found a bull and I’ve sucked his cock twice now in the car, once with my husband at home and once with my husband in the front seat driving, but not able to see or hear much of what happened.

Eventually I want to fuck my bull, but he doesn’t necessarily want my husband in the room the first time. Im on the fence about this, on one hand it would be hot to do it with him there, on the other hand I’ve never had someone watch me have sex before and I’m worried I won’t be able to enjoy it as much if I feel like I have to put on a show.

My husband thinks watching the first time would be important because there is only ever going to be one first time getting fucked while married, and he wants to be there to experience it.

Does anyone have advice for what I should do? When you did it for the first time was your husband there? If he wasn’t is there any regret from him not being able to see the first time?

Edit: After reading some comments my husband wanted me to clarify that he is also somewhat on the fence of whether or not he wants watch the first time, or if it would add to the hotness to just hear the moans from the other side of the door and let his imagination go wild, and watch videos of it after. If he was sure he wanted to watch, then we would 100% make that the priority, but that is what makes this a difficult choice, and he is looking for advice just as much as I am.