AIO: My best friend is dating my assaulters' best friend.

TW: Sexual Assault.

A little while ago, me and my best friend (of a decade) met 2 guys. Let's call them Rick and Josh. Rick and I went back to my place, Josh and her went to her place. This was after a few drinks, a slightly irresponsible night and I ended up having sex with Rick.

The next morning, woke up, Rick was still in my bed, I was still naked. I was a little surprised to see him still there, but I assumed I just forgot to kick him out. We spoke for a little bit, then he started begging me for sex. I told him no, asked him to leave a little, he said he would "leave when his friend (Josh) is awake" to pick him up. I accepted. then, he started touching me, I didnt initially resist.

Then he started asking for sex more, I refused AGAIN. Then, he began asking me to sit on his... you know, but with insertion. Initially I agreed to get him to stop pestering, which I regret. After I got off, he began pulling me onto him to him, I kept saying "no, no, no" and he just kept on pulling me up and I was pushing back, but he was much stronger than me and held me there even though I kept saying let go, and started "moving" me in a way that got him off.

Eventually, I manage to get off before he finishes, then my friend called (lets call her Abby) and wanted to pick up her things from last night - she was already outside. I let her in, we speak for a bit, and she leaves. I then tell Rick to leave and he finally does.

Fast forward a few days, I'm speaking to my best mate, haven't really told anyone what happened, but then I tell her. She is of course furious for me, but then also tells me the whole group of friends (even ones I never met) took to the group chat to make fun of me. Laughing at me, calling me ugly... which I was confused about as 1) I am not, but 2) most of them never saw me. Turns out, Rick sent a photo of me whilst I was sleeping (mind you I was sleeping naked), and I also found out he took a picture of Abby discreetly just to make fun of her on the group chat too, which I found vile because she did him no wrong.

The group chat continue to bring up my name, laugh at me, and I am being updated through my best friend who is being updated through Josh.

As time passes, I am able to feel a little better about the situation, however, it did take a huge toll on me. I began drinking a lot, gained a lot of weight, cried a lot - sometimes I didn't even know what I was crying at - and I became so anxious about men, even men who have always been close to me. The main issue was, Josh and my best friend were becoming more serious, whilst Rick was moving out of my life completely, which I was happy for her, but he not only was a constant reminder, but also involved in the making fun of me and the whole situation of, in a way, defending Rick (through saying "he was just joking" etc).

I told my best friend that I dont understand what they see to be a joke, she said "he (Josh) just doesnt understand sexual assault"... as a grown man?😐

Eventually, I tried to let it all subside... like sure, my anger shouldnt all be towards Josh, it was just because he was the last remaining "reminder" of it all, and he was the last part of the friendship group that was actively in my life. But then, I found out my best friend was now mingling and close with the whole friendship group... the ones that were making fun of me and my situation and laughing at my upset over my assault and humiliation.

I suppose I want to he happy for her, but I feel a sense of... betrayal? I don't really know what to do, but I have told her multiple times about my distaste for everything overall and she suggested "therapy". AIO for feeling this way? What do I do?

(sorry if this didnt make sense, im horrible at recounting events)