I picked this up thinking, what would be so great ab this book that everyone who has read it ends up weeping. I finished reading this last week and now i know. I still cant stop thinking ab shit i read. Everything felt so real. 

It almost felt like the author wanted to traumatise the readers. Intentionally hurting us through those pages. I was in distress after i finished the book. No movie no other book even nothing that happened in my entire life had made my heart ache this much. 

There were instances where i couldnt finish a full page because of the tears i was shedding. There were times when i just instantly closed the book to calm myself down. 

There was a point where i thoughy everything was alright, everything was gonna be okay but there was still roughly 200 pages left. 

Today i saw a 4 year old boy laughing and playing w his mother, and for some reason he reminded me jude. How his life would have been. And how can a person w a mind and a sound body think ab doing something awful to all these precious babies. 

It pains me to even think this kind of thinga could actually be happening to someone somewhere on the planet. Maybe even someone closer to us. Life is cruel. And i would never blame Jude for the decision he took at the end. In fact i wouldnt blame anyone who makes such a choice. Who am i to judge? What do i know ab their lives? What do i know ab whats going on inside their head? 

A little life