Is this it?

Am I doomed from now until the very end of time? Sounds like the most negative shit I have ever spewed but it’s eating me constantly. I have been more debilitated for as long as I could remember and I always have a goddamn theme in mind. My question is, from now until the end of time, am I doomed to the perpetual cycle of having a theme that leaves me debilitated until I move on the next?

Anybody who has ever recovered please tell me this is not all there is life has to fucking offer.