Why?.

So hello, I’m Nonbinary age 19.
And I just hate how my brain sometimes processes change, sometimes it’s little or big (mostly little) changes that feel nice and I unbothered, sometimes it’s little or big changes and I’m all over the place, at least mostly with big changes I am, smaller changes I can handle and ground myself quicker, but with how I feel when something changes in a way my brain hates, it’s like you look around and everything looks the same but at the same time it doesn’t, as if something has been photoshopped but you can’t put your finger on what has changed, and sometimes that feeling gets in the way of me doing “regular” things, like eating.
Idk it just sucks and I needed to get it out because right now I’m sitting in my room with no idea what to do because everything feels different, and doesn’t make it better that a lot of changes happened so fast and such little time.