Pointers for an apothisexual heteromantic woman that sometimes draws NSFW male anatomy?

First off, is that weird or contradictory? It's not a sexual reason, but an anatomical interest since I am a cis woman who loves science. But I feel like it's still weird cause I'm a sex repulsed asexual. I also don't know where I would ask for advice on these drawings since most of my buddies know me as SFW cause I'm ace and sex-repulsed, or they're also ace and don't like to look at NSFW as a result