Manifestation real?

me and my sp were together for 7-8 months. We both started as casual and then developed feelings. He asked me 2 times to be his girlfriend and i said no, due to my first rlsp i had trust issues. And he himself was known as the typical fboy. So he changed everything that bothered me and was open with everything. He really wanted to be in a rlsp, so i told him i was ready and the exact same day he asked me. We hung out like everyday the moment we met. We never rlly argued and i rlly trusted him. I was the Person to talk to him if i had the tiniest issue but he didnt rlly tell me what bothered him, so he wasnt emotionally open yet. Everything was going rlly rlly great. Then i did something that hurted his trust ALOT. I didnt cheat but there was alc and boys involved. He claimed that in that Situation i chose boys over our rlsp, and felt like i did the same thing I was always afraid of him doing. I rlly hurt him like alot alot, he called a rlly good boy friend of mine, because he didnt know how to handle the Situation, because i didnt see the Situation as that bad. The boys i was around was like Family related, so at the time i didnt quite see how bad the Situation was. Well he wanted to Break up but i fighted for our rlsp and i won. Everything was fine and we were rlly happy. A month later on a weekend, our vibe was pretty of, but the Situation was caused because we were 24/7 around eachother and he wanted todo smth with his friends, i knew about it, but i wanted to do smth with him to. I didnt give him space that night and it was my fault on how the Situation ended. Next day he acted as if nothing happend, at breakfirst he told his Patents we were doing some stuff together, but i rlly wasnt in the mood because our vibe was just real off. after breakfirst i told him that i needed Space and that we needed Space, he agreed but still didnt say anything to the Situation, he also still had issues forgetting about what i did and didnt know if he could handle it any longer, but didnt want to break up. So i was rlly hurt and knew just knew smth was off. (Now i know i should‘ve given us and him More Space, because we were rlly just around echother for weeks) after the talk he didnt rlly want todo anything.I was really upset and scared, i knew something was off. I must say i am rlly emotional not stable. I would distance myself if i felt anythint wrong( ik not good). So he told me he was going to a friends house and i searched through his ipad. And i found stuff. I was rlly mad because all the time he accused me off all these things while he literally did the same.just that mine are rumours. I called my boy friend and best friend and they told me to break up. Buttt i loved him so much and builz up a trust, that i thought there must be another explanation. So i was still at his house and after dinner i talked to him and asked if rlly nothing happend and he still denied. My mind was exploding. Next day i went to my best friends house and she told me to have the courage to tell him that i knew. I was rlly scared, but eventually i calld him. He first denied the girl and Everything and told me an excuse that i rlly believed. I then kinda broke up through text but he still wanted to talk to me. Well kinda took the wrong turn, we talked and he wanted to break up. He said both our trust were gone, he still loved me, but couldn‘t fix the problem that he had trust issues all the time, he made it clear the he jus didnt want the rlsp anymore. Your wondering why i didnt Break up? I loved him way to much, i was willing to forgive and forget anything. I wasnt evan the one wanting to Break up and doing smth wrong but somehow i still wanted us. He went home and i told him we were still together and we could talk tmrw, he was a bit drunk but agreed. My mind was just so confused, because he rlly was the one changing for me in the beginning. The next day i went to his place and he told me he didnt cheat, and did the things because i hurt him so bad with my mistake and that he wanted to hurt me. Long story short: i still belived him that he didnt cheat, anf believed all the excuses. The only thing i know is that he did the thing ( i found photos) before my mistake happend. But i still was willing to forgive everything and fix us. By that time he already told me that he cant do the rlsp anymore, it was draining him emotionally. Soo i stayed at his place till he would give me another chance. Well i talked ages to convice him but it didnt work, i slept over at his place. Thinking he would change his mind. In the morning we both didnt go to school, and i went on his phone to see if he has talked about his friends over the Situation or to find anything else. He was asleep when i found pictures of a girl naked. I took pictures. I didnt confront him. He still was loving towards me the whole day. I didnt know what to think. At the end of the day we agreed to see eachother on friday and that we werent broken up. I thought i could fix our rlsp. I dont even know why i STILL wanted it. My best friend told me i need to confront him. So at night i told him and he wasnt bothered and told me atleast know i wanted to Break up. I was rlly mad and upset. I wrote him one last text trying to convince him, but he just told me that he thinks its better that we Break up because he emotionally cannot take the rlsp anymore, but he still wanted to talk and told me he still loved me. Well the next day we talked, but talked the same thing, and i kinda excepted it. I gave him a gift that made him cry and he didnt cry for years. I knew he still loved me. He cried for about an hour and wanted to be alone. I couldnt leave him there and i just hugged him. He told me he didnt deserve me and he had the photos of the girl because he couldnt Break up with me but wanted to. He said he was the one creating cheating rumours abt himself hoping i would Break up. Thats when i started to cry the first time, because that rlly hurted me, he then hugged me. Funny thing is, weeks before, when i heard the rumours he denied everything like it would depend on his life. I still belived he didnt physically cheat on me. Well we broke up that day and i didnt rlly cry or anything. Next day i asked him what we were going todo( go no contact or wear our braclets). He agreed that things dont change right now and we would talk a week later, so i still had hope. Well two days later a friend came up to me and told me that his best friends told her that he cheated on me. So i decided to cut the line and texted him i will get my stuff and leave. He still wanted to explain himself and honestly i‘ve been waiting to get an answer on his behavour. Well he still couldnt explain why he did it but still denied that he ever cheated. He told me he still loved me, also kissed me. He said he hopes in a few weeks he could explain himself. I was already accepting our break up. I put down the braclet and he asked confused why i did that. Which confused me, because he wasnt wearing his either. He told me he was, but took it of bcs of sports. Well we hugged and he told me if were ment to be we will and our love can rekindle. I didnt cry i jus agreed and went Home. We still snapped and had locations, so it didnt feel off. A couple days later we saw eachother again, drunk this time. He hugged me and lifted me up for a few seconds and kinda kissed my neck. We stared at eachother the whole drive (we were with our Friends) after all the shit we still were so close. Well we seperated our ways in the club, i made out with someone else an everybody saw. I texted him the next day, that i was sorry and it didt mean anything but he just brushed it off. Couple days later we saw eachother at anothr party. We ignored eachother but his friends kept looking. Well a few weeks later he went over to my boy friends home, and told him he wanted to cut off and hope i dont see his location right now. That confused me alot. I decided to turn off locations and stopped snapping. I didnt remove him, because he didnt want that. I missed him ALOT ALOT. I was still willing to forgive and fix. So i started to manifest. All the techniques and methods, also paid for bunch of stuff. The first week i still checked if he deleted anything of us on his prv insta or his reposts but didnt, i posted alot on my private. Thevnext weeks i started to lock in and dont react to the 3d at ALL. I actualky felt the energy after doing spells or methods. Even the 3d showing me results. I listened to sublinimals and then i saw him like walking past me out of nowhere. I started rlly rlly to believe. One day i told my self the numbers 1,6,2 are signs from the universe( these numbers are related to my rlsp) and since then no matter where i saw these numbers. After rlly feeling and locking in for a month, i couldnt handle it anymore. I was and still am rlly tired. All my Energy is gone and i have a huge apetite out of nowhere. Well last week i saw him again at a party and just for the info, weeks earlier he kissed a girl at a party and since then they are rlly good friends. That girl i also know because she was there when i the first time kissed someone else after the break up. So i dont hate her but feel uncomfortable. She also went to primary school with my vest friend. Well i thought she wouldnt greet us because she knew that she kissed my ex and know is sorta bestie and i just known her that one night. But strange thing she greeted me like we were best friends and next to her the sister of my ex‘s best friend, which i like and she likes me. (Note: the Sister told me weeks before, my ex regret what he did and rlly did love me, but that i should move on) well so that girl then asked me how it was going with the boy i kissed, and i was just already confused, but told her that it was casual, but i knew she already knew that. The sister gave me a look: i know you know that she and my sp had kissed and now are good friends, i could tell she was on my side and had the sadness in her eyes that what my sp did was just wrong. Yall have to know at the beginning all his friends told me how happy and inlove my ex was, and he never acted that way before. Well my ex and i ignored eachother and he didnt even look at me. A few days later he removed some Photos on his prv so i kinda gave up with manifesting and just removed him and his friends completly. I feel free but at the same time, i love him more more everyday. Its like he possesed me. I cant take it anymore, i want to move on. I want to get his apolgy message and that he changed for good. I dont even know why. Mostly because i am just sooooo tired, i could sleep all day. My energy just isnt therr anymore and i want to live. But i jus know or belive that we are meant for eachother.
Probs because of the numbers. A couple days ago, i was crashing out and asked god for a sign or i give up. He gave me on a car plate the numbers. So i still had hope but after that, i just keep seeing the numbers everywhere, like its kinda disturbing where and how often i see the number and mostly when i have the most negative thoughts.oh and my boy friend and i argued, and i msnifested that he will apolgies and the next day he actually send me a tiktok abt missing me and he also actually talked to me and wanted our friendship back, but i said no. Same week, i rlly had the most baddest breakdown and started to cry AGAIN AFTER A VERY LONG TIME and that was for a few days. I even looked at our text and photos. Then yesterday i just rlly thought nothing will work and just gave up, then OUT OF NOWHERE HIS NAME WAS SUDDENLY ENGRAVED IN MY PHONE CHARGER. I for sure now it wasnt there before.I rlly want to manifest, not only to get my love back but also win in life and getting rid of these numbers. They have been traumatizing.
Please help. I jus finished writing this and suddenly someone added me with his bestfriends name. Like the exact name. NO ONE HAS EVER ADDED ME ON SNAP WITH THAT NAME. I am just lwky getting scared.