Need guidance and accountability

With first proffs coming up in less than 30 days, need someone who can push me to study

Failed in all my internal exams and was not even bothered enough to attempt all questions and do proper paper presentation (because I wasn't prepared for the exam and was going to fail anyway). May be not even eligible to write final exam based on internal marks criteria.

Totally lost and have no one along the same stage as me 🙇‍♀️