[F4F] Having crush on my personal assistant and becoming a cuckquean. Giving up control.

Having an impressive career, managing position, nice house, - all that is surely nice. But t some point all the hardworking, keeping everything under my own control was becoming just too exhausting. Since I earned enough to afford myself a personal assistant, it didn’t make sense to keep having some meltdowns due to lack of energy to take care of everything on my own.
And that’s how you appeared in my professional and personal life.
Your position was a bit special: it wasn’t just about joining me to the work meetings and taking the notes.
No, it was pretty much taking care about everything. Including the work and private schedule, driving me when it was needed, and even getting me out of trouble if things would get escalated.

Surely, this might sound as a lot. But I was ready to pay you way more than any secretary or assistant would get.
On top of that, you had a right to spend a night in my house. Sometimes it was a need to make things more efficient: if I had some very late evening meeting, or some things planned early morning. But sometimes it wasn’t even about your work, but just about pleasure. I didn’t even mind you bringing over a friend or few, while I was away, you using living room, outdoor garden and even the BBQ and pool. As long as everything was left clean and in a nice order, I didn’t seem to care much.

As for me, I had quite a messy personal life. You might have gotten a hint of it, since from time to time you had to pick me up from somewhere in the middle of the night, when date didn’t go well, or hear someone leaving my home after a loud fight.

But there was something else. At some point I started to truly have a crush on you. Maybe, it was unavoidable, since you were spending so much time around. Sooner or later, you would notice that. Was it simply my looks, changed face expression, and tone of my voice, while you were around? Or maybe it’s even more than this: watching you while you are doing sports or walking around after shower not fully dressed, of even having a whole collection of your images in my room.
You heard enough scandals between me and my other work colleagues, my not so long lasting relationship, to know that getting into something serious with me might be not the smartest idea, - even though with you I was usually rather polite.
Besides, you had a partner.
And since I was allowing you to bring friends around, you took a liberty to bring your partner over too.

Knowing all this, at some point you might decide to use my crush on you against me. Show me just the place that I deserve. And your partner.. might would enjoy this too.

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