The gooner to cuck pipeline

Having been a gooner my entire life. I am genuinely addicted to pumping and edging my cock. Stroking and staring at the screen for hours at a time. The dopamine flooding my brain as I watch beautiful women have sex.

I have trained my sexuality to be centered around watching. To the point that when I have sex, it lacks in intensity compared to watching and stroking. I have literally chosen porn over sex on multiple occasions.

I know it’s not right. I know my brain and sexuality have been corrupted and altered. But I don’t want to get better. I want edge for 10+ hours and not cum. I want to drool as i stare hypnotically.

I hope one day to find a goonette who understands. A woman that gets it. A woman that understands sex for me is meant to be between my cock and my hand, her hand, her thighs. Not her pussy. To live and to worship her as i watch her feed her every carnal craving with others. What could be more romantic than two people who completely understand each others needs so deeply?