Dear mom

Dear mom
You did in fact ruin my life , I have to do damage control. You made me feel bad for everything I did . Unless if it was for you . You made me emotionally replace what you didn’t have . But now I am a social outcast regardless of what I do. I want to blame myself but I can’t . No one was there for me whether I liked it or not . You constantly reminded me either way I was traumatized. Not whatever I could do to get through it . Now if I do what you say to do , I’m weird and not doing things correctly by society standards . I let you go , I let whatever you had over me go . You were cruel . You should’ve known better as a parent . This isn’t blame , it’s accountability. You would never understand the message I convey . It’s fine . In a way it’s your fault too and your stupid husband. But I’m not what you say I am . I never was
I’m resilient as hell and you didn’t make me that way nor did anybody who done something bad to be did . I made me that way . All my strength is a reaction to what you didn’t or did do to me .
You did make me the problem and even if I was you never brought up solutions . I was a kid not a villain in your story . I have to carry the weight now but thank God I am strong enough.
I hope you heal .