Update!!!

Update: 

Wow holy shit! I did not expect my post to get as much attraction as it did!! I really just expected to get about 10 upvotes,  but no! I had so many encouraging men and women telling me what I should do with my own life. It's so difficult trying to come to terms with the fact that I am my own person despite years of abuse telling me that I will forever be attached to the person who hurt me the most. Thank you all for your encouragement 💗

For the people who are worried about my living situation, I wanted to say that I do have a backup plan if I ever do need to run away. My boyfriend and his family have both said they would help me so I wouldn't be homeless or anything. Me and my boyfriend have been together for almost 4 years now, he knows the entire timeline of my abuse from my toddlerhood up until now. So please do not worry! I do have someone to help me! 

As for college, I will admit I am conflicted. I feel like I need to rush through life immediately and get a job immediately, but hearing so many people say I still have time is really encouraging. I heard someone say that I could still do dental hygiene, then when I conjure up the money, I can go to school part time! Which honestly does not sound that bad of a plan.

And for everyone else who is reading this, in a similar situation as me no matter the age: YOU STILL GOT THIS!!!!!!!!!! It's better late than never! Living a life you enjoy than living a life you hate will be so much more rewarding.

Healing is difficult, even I'm not strong enough to heal yet, but I do trust what the future has in store for me. Surround yourself with good people who care and love you despite every single flaw you have, and you'll end up being the richest person in the world, no matter how much money you have. 

Thank you Reddit for your encouragement 💗