What the fuck.

I hate my family so much. Dude. For context, I'm a trans teen with horrible dysphoria who doesn't pass very well with awful depression because of it. My little brother, 10M, calls me a boy and uses he/him to my face. He also has these little bitchy friends who were raised by transphobes and like to make fun of me for being trans. I know Im older than them, but I'm still mad. I recently found out that my brother joins in with them when I'm not around. What the fuck!? Dude!? One of the few people I thought actually accepted me. I think he only reason he calls me my preferred name and pronouns to my face is because I'll ignore him otherwise. I overheard him talking to one of his friends earlier and calling me she. I hate myself enough already.