I want relief man

Relief of my captor
Relief of this world
Relief of responsibility
Relief of scorn
Relief of depravity
Relief of desperation
Relief of deceit and of desensitization
Relief of self
Relief of my own wealth
Relief of responsibility
And relief of self
Two time i said self
Three times more the double
Begging has only caused me trouble
So i being to this dear viewer
How
How may my soul believe when a black mirror reflects truer?