I want to get tattoed.

As I said, I really want to get tattoos, but I have always hold myself back because of my mother. She‘s religious and very emotional. Everything I do is suddenly her fault, in her perspective. Every sin, every mistake. I‘m torn between choosing myself slowly and finding out what my faith with Allah looks like, but also I don’t want to make my mother sad or disappoint her. Even when I had a helix piercing she wasn’t able to sleep and prayed for me. We have a strong connection and I‘m always able to talk about my doubts/questions with her and she kind of knows that my faith is not the strongest. But I am so afraid that it‘s gonna hit her too hard. She told me to wait with tattoos until she died. But am I a wrong person to choose myself? Or is it too selfish?

Anyone who is/was in the same situation?

Thanks a lot and stay blessed.