I feel very disrespected in my family

I love these ppl very much and I'm always sweet even on many bad days when I'm a little rude i immediately apologise and make up for my mistakes I do that even when it's their mistake and they , none of them actually do any of that

It's like they don't care cuz i never let them think about me

It's very depressing to me

Also there are constant fat jokes i might be fat ok but I have pcods i think cuz my periods are irregular as hell and these ppl haven't even showed me to a doctor man my legs hurt like hell on days for no reason n still they couldn't give a damn when I was struggling to walk like a 90 year old or sum

I was pretty thin two years back that's cuz I used to skip lunch and very little dinner and i still thought I was fat none of them said anything to me back then

I try to keep them together and NONE of them listen to me

I don't have many friends but the ones I do respect me and even ppl I'm not friends with think I'm a very good person and a lil cold but in my own house i always feel like they're looking at me with disgust ,like they're thinking about how stupid, fat and ugly I'm

Even my little sister, I'm the oldest sibling and i love her too obviously every time I come home from the hostel I bring stuff for her and i want her to grow and learn things that i never got to explore so i bought her a book this time , Animal farm and she gave that book not even ONE look, I've wanted to read that book for years and i didn't even open it before giving it to her and she hasn't even read it 😞 infact she's given it to her friend very recently and I've asked her to just give it back to me and then i demanded it back ahe finally revealed that she sold it ,wtf 😭 I'd told her that if you don't like it then just give it to me n today was one of the bad days i she snapped her fingers and ordered me to make coffee it wasn't in a fun way i could tell it was very bad embarrassing and i felt like i... Will never be respected here in my own family even tho I'm very soft and kind towards them