Permission

Ancient and profound, I find myself as water;

My back turned to fantasy, my face toward terror.

Quietly, effortlessly, I cradle every sorrow,

And in the heart of chaos, I shelter you from pain.

With every door left open, I still see you;

Submerged in oil, forever in your orbit.

Unbridled, I surround you with longing;

Lost among the clouds—what else was I expecting?

Show me your truth;

Untethered from reality.

I freeze—I know the taste of morbidity,

And pray that sanity still lingers.

Countless summers passed, yet fascination remained.

Your layers never faded; you stayed the "proper" one.

A mountain of unspoken kisses means nothing

Before an insecurity built from concrete.

I lose myself in fantasy,

Enchanted by the forbidden.

You allow yourself so little—it's almost unbearable.

You indulge, yet silence your own desire.

Help me understand; help me finally see.

Let me scream—I cannot hold it any longer.

The need is real, though perhaps it can wait.

I cannot comprehend... please, let me love you.

A few more steps until acceptance finds me.

A few more springs until you begin to change.

I always knew we were never meant to blend,

Yet, just this once, I let myself be carried away.

You, like oil, slip through my hands.

I lie beside myself and understand you.

You climb into your clouds until the end,

And I applaud as I watch you rise.

Hi, I'm from Brazil and wrote this in portuguese. I tried to translate as well as I could even after I realized how hard it could get. This came from a great love I had once, we could never be togheter because we were on church...and well, we are girls. Anyways, she married a few months ago and I felt like I should write one thing or two about us. I don't write much and this is my first time posting my stuff, so I'd love some feedbacks.

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