Making friendships into porn fuel by outing myself as a gooner.

I've found something that makes me turned on like nothing else. Having my IRL friends know that I am a chronic masturbator and a porn addict. There are at least five of them that know I love masturbating and watching others masturbate. That I edge for hours at a time, at least once a day. These are beautiful girls that I have fantasized about masturbating together with. But they are also friends I've casually hanged out with. Every time I masturbate, it feels like they're watching me, even when they aren't, because they at least know I'm probably doing it right now.