I won’t say anything and hope it’s just a phase that goes away on its own

I can’t stop thinking about living as a guy, but I will stay convinced I am not trans. I will start wearing men’s clothes, have short hair, bind, but that’s it. I’m not going to tell anyone my thoughts or ask for anyone’s support. I will live as a woman that dresses like a man. I won’t risk anything, and I won’t humiliate myself.