Help me!

Hi, im 25 years old. I work as a chemist and most of my tasks at work are routinely performed. after work, i usually go home. the drive from my workplace to my house is around 45 mins to 1 hr. i often sleep during the drive since my father drives for me. i sometimes scroll through tiktok, Facebook, and other social media too while en route to home. lately, i find this schedule exhausting. work to home and vv on weekdays; get bored on Saturday and grocery run/church on Sunday. this is so repetitive.

while i am drafting this, my mind is clouded with thoughts, most of them are negative. i really need help or maybe just some people to talk to. i have friends but we dont talk/chat alot. the only time they talk to me are during utang times or when they need load/gcash or whatever. i am also not open with my fam. when im at home, i only stay in my room. i find it hard to talk to them especially to my dad who has a history of cheating. like literally, i read the conversation with him and our neighbor “how many times did we had sex already” and other messages. my life is so fucked up rn. i apologize if i am being dramatic rn.

please help me guys. i dont want to end my life.