Im Sorry. Thank You.

Im sorry for everything, for not being the man i should have been for you, for not making you feel as loved as you deserve. Im sorry for becoming better too late when I should have just done it sooner with you. Im sorry for all the tears you shed for me, im sorry for being a fuck up and constantly making mistakes, even if I didnt repeat them its like I always found something new that was wrong to do. Im sorry for how I spoke to you in moments of anger, regardless of the fight you didnt deserve to be spoken to harshly or even in a raised voice. You are the woman I love and the woman I will regret losing. I am Sorry. For it all. Thank you for everything, for loving me, for seeing me, for giving me a home when I had none, for getting me through my episodes of psychosis, for allowing me to feel safe enough that I could finally cry. Thank you for not judging me, for accepting me as I was despite me not being a good man. Im trying to do better, trying to be better and I will be better. You made me a better man and I thank you for believing that I could be. I wish I had the guts to face you, but genuinely you terrify me. It terrifies me how vulnerable I become when I look in your eyes and it terrifies me of what I'd do for you just to spend one more day together. Thank you, I can only pray that if God gave me another chance, if you gave me another chance. Despite giving me so damn many, I could finally get it right. For now I let you go and hope you find the happiness you deserve, and the love that you deserved from me.